So, this post comes after a year and a half of some more roller coasters in my life!!...In the past 18 months, I completed my Diploma in Clinical Research (hopefully i will not be tempted to study anymore), stood first for the same, bagged my first job in the very first interview of my life, got an award for the same, left it suddenly (everyone was shocked including me) and am now in probation for my second job...
So everyone keeps asking me now...why did u leave that MNC for an Indian firm? Why take up a non listed company when you were in a Nasdaq listed billion dollar firm?! Well, it wasn't an easy choice for me. But I still gave up a "permanent" position that paid me decently, for a job in which i am on probation and there is no guarantee they will keep me! So, the question is WHY. Well, the answer comes in the form of a question ....Can you do something everyday of your life just for the money? If that would have been a yes for me, i would still be having a gala time in my previous employment.
This was a choice i could have made last year itself when my previous company came for the campus recruitment. I could have waited for the right profile but at that time I thought it was risky to wait. What if no other decent company shows up? What if i do not get through the next interview?! These imaginary fears and lack of self confidence drove me into doing something for 8 months of my life which i had 0 interest in. So what did i learn?
I came across the same crossway which i had the last year too. Thus, this time around when i was faced with a similar situation, i chose not to get bogged down by my lack of confidence. I could not bear to continue doing something that i didn't have my heart in when i was a given an opportunity for the profile i was dreaming of getting for the past 2 years. This is definitely a test, in which i need to prove to myself more than anybody else, that i am capable of better and bolder decisions and have the guts to survive the consequences. I am just 3 weeks into my probation period which is for 3 months and as of yet i have no idea whether they will hire me or no, but no matter what the outcome, i will always feel satisfied that i gave myself a chance...maybe a little late but i did!
I have learned that you cannot escape risks in your life and also the result of the choices you make...but its always better to try and then lose than never have tried at all and keep thinking all your life....What if i had....
2 comments:
hmmm...! May be i will learn one day to express myself.
Listening to your heart does seem to pose a lot of threats to your comfort zone & tht long built sense of security rather than gifting u tht divine feeling of satisfaction...but in the long run, u are atleast happy to live with yourself which matters a lot... So bravo ! keep it up !
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